IT’S JUST… I DON’T KNOW!
I don’t know where my life going. I am very afraid whether I
would be able to have my big shot in life or not. Actually, it is of mixed
feelings. I mean why we have to do all of this – to be perfect, well earned and
educated, settled. Sometime I think this is not for me. I want to be gypsy and
want to explore each and every corner of world. I want to see different color
of life. I want to feel each hiccup of life. I know this world is full of many
shades of life – happiness and sadness, goodness and badness or we can say
mixture of something and something. Why does it matter? I mean this life will get
over somewhere when we get old like the last word of last chapter of last page
of book. But the process of running behind position will never be over.
Everything is left behind like friends, habit of eating chocolate,
relationships, mom, dad, family with respect to time. And when we look at our
tight fist of hands and open it, we see nothing. It seems that every precious
moment we spent with our loved ones is just slipped away like sand of time. I
am that passenger who is standing alone in the world of desert but nowhere to
go. As when I look around I see only emptiness except forlorn sun and begging
land. So that sun let it free from its ruthless hunter of rays. With all this
hindrances I decided to walk in the hope that I could find my way and get my place of
esteem. And I never stop myself to be my own so that I could dig out my way on
my own. In the situation where everybody is just trying to be fit in some
place, I want be my own destiny digger. No one can change your life except you.
And this is what all that matters. It is important to be yourself to remain with
yourself.
